In this life, everyone will grieve; some more than others and some deeper than others. Nevertheless, everyone will be touched by grief. There is no escape.
For each of us, grieving will be personal. No one else will grieve exactly the way you do, nor someone else. As love is personal, so, too, is grief.
Your grief is yours. No one else can feel your pain, your sense of loss as you do. Grieve as you need to and allow others the same. Grief is personal.